I thought we had gotten close And thats why I treated you so But I must have overdosed Cause this feels like a dumb show Was that a free throw Will I ever strike the lotto Seeing your photo Only makes me go whoa Your face is aglow With the brightness from your soul I share with you my pains and woes Hoping you would get the memo It's so hard to let go You walk on tiptoe And disappear into the shadow But I'll wait out here for you in the meadow In this afterglow Even after tomorrow Maybe one day I'll let it go We can't go back to what I'm used to Although Will you stay with me? Until I've learnt to let go There's just something about you That makes me feel brand new So sureal But i wish we could undo This freaking tattoo This is deja vu You never make it to our rendezvous Whew I guess this love is overdue....

I wanted you the most To brighten my life with colours of gold But you look at me like I was unknown Too bad I'm not who you want to hold Gave you what you wanted The way you make me so broke I am just like a tail bone How can I keep staying afloat What a dream When you speak to me It feels so good just knowing you Give me all the attention before you leave Tell me your secrets your favourite songs Fire up at the little things But at least appreciate this water venus I just want to feel worth it Worth feeling like a king Seeing you love someone else Now that you're like the Black Sea I'm the Red Sea and you're dead to me But I'll still fall back into you like I always do I say that I wish I had known What I was bringing myself into Although I already knew The kind of things you would do Always the same So just to let you know Wish I could say it's good to see you now Overthinking brings me such woes Just keep talking because you remind me of someone I know Wish I could silence all this visceral thrill You are so cute It's driving me insane So this was an open letter to tell you "I'm sorry I will be better It seems like forever  but I ....

She came into my life Like a waterfall We bonded so well Like never before It was different I felt safe around her And everyone said we were like dumb and dumber Another soulmate I guess it was fate That made it so great Hopefully this friendship has no due date....

Read only if interested in the heart and mind!! Okay im going to just quote things from a book called "Into the Magic Shop: A Neurosurgeon's Quest to Discover the Mysteries of the Brain and the Secrets of the Heart" by James R. Doty, MD Basically there is an epidemic of loneliness, anxiety, and depression in the world, particularly in the West because of the loss of spirit and connection with one another. Studies show that 25 percent of Americans have no one that they feel close enough with to share a problem. Isolation and loneliness only puts us at a greater risk for early disease and death than smoking.  (Dont isolate yourselves kids!!!!) Authentic social connection has a profound effect on your mental health and even exceeds the value of exercise and ideal body weight on your physical health which makes you feel good. Social connection triggers the same reward centers in your brain that are triggered when people do drugs, or drink alcohol, or eat chocolate. In other words, we get sick alone, and we get well together. (So what me, Princehooligan, wants whoever reading this to know that pushing people away is not the way to treating yourself better. Just because something bad happened does not mean you push people (your closest friends, your friends, everyone) away. Isolating yourself will only make the issue worse. But do spend time with yourself reflecting. Just don't be passive aggressive or rude when a friend ....

The memories I would treasure The personalities that caused displeasure I will never forget But it shall now come to a closure The hurting heart Needs a restart Too many times It has fallen apart The memories they stay But day by day It seems that Everything slowly slips away I wish you knew What you've put me through I have feelings too That I do not wear on my sleeves like a tattoo In the twinkling of an eye A year has gone by Memories But this is goodbye....

Every time I hear the keys jangle I immediately think of you I miss you more everyday I wish we could start anew Your absence Is like a hole in my heart I was only 14 How could you depart Your presence I took for granted Your selflessness My life you impacted I was in school When I heard the news As soon as I was told to go to the hospital It was all I knew I miss you grandpa I hope life is good wherever you are That your good soul I know Has made you a superstar....

Your shadow loomed large over me Your opinions weighed on my shoulders Like you ever cared about my thoughts But all I cared was yours I killed a part of me to keep you alive Hoping the same could be done Far-fetched expectations Lack of affections Love never ends Forgive mistakes were made You were the best I could have But also the worst I've met....

You're an ant In a world filled with rage Love and hate Feeling like the only page That fell out of someone's life Things change so fast Confusion filled with fear Everything you ever held close Is slowly not near They leave But feelings stay Old habits die hard But your world has turned to grey ....

Alone With a phone The world around you Spinning like a cyclone. No one cares Until you announce "I'm here" As if your presence could disappear When all along you were always there. They lie that they're busy Which makes you dizzy A concern message is just that easy But they wanna feel like they ain't that easy Whatever You shrug it off Hoping this is not forever But you will not go soft Anymore ....

We sit in silence Calm and peaceful Not breathing a word But We are in pain Lost Unsure Of the future We live each day like a survivor Of our bad thoughts Only dreaming Never doing The silence It is deafening Unbearable The pain we see in others' faces The pain we face Unable to shut our eyes to stop seeing To stop feeling Silence was never silence It can become awkward Or it can become painful Let it go Live with no fear Let the silence happen because of a bombshell Your success After the rise from failure Show what you are capable of....

Oh why did Sarah have to die? She was that girl next door The girl everyone loved So kind So smart Why did she die? She strayed She was mean Once When Mark came along But she changed Why did she have to die? She loved John John loved her They were meant for each other. They wanted to travel the world Seek adventures no one's ever had She was captured once But she fought hard She did good She fought the Mogadorians Before Legacy spread They had their adventures They had their fun She shouldn't have died John is going to miss her They could have had more fun I'm sorry John Pittacus did you bad He did Sarah bad too Rest in peace Sarah You will be missed by all For your bravery For taking one for Six For the team Bless you Sarah Goodbye....

What have you achieved After all these years of rebelling Against everyone To prove that you were not dreaming For naught. You are stuck in a slumber Seemingly drowning Lost in a hole Unable to climb out. What happened to the boy The boy who had dreams The boy who did not want to be someone's toy What happened?....